Kind of ironic that today I will begin blogging here on the evening before Mom's and Dad's 56th anniversary (my conception date to our best calculations! :) ... My other blog can be found here, but as I'm turning a new leaf (autumn, anyone?), I begin anew here.
My greatest intention as I enter this new phase of life known as "Empty Nesting" is to truly wear my insides outside. In other words, who you see is who I am... Lofty, eh? Knowing that I will fall short of this daily however, will not deter my intention. Why not? Because, the One Who Lives in me is greater than my most miserable fail... and He directs my path.
Key words that keep surfacing during the past months:
Simple
Be
Love
Surrender
Let Go
Trust
As I've begun (again) a pursuit of healthier choices, I will be logging pictures and progress. I will not be sharing this with anyone initially, as fear of public failure will only hinder me. So this is (today) only for me... my thoughts... my words... my pictures... and of course for the One Who is always Present.
So here's some basic stats:
- I began a Totally New Career in February in nursing informatics, after 25 years of pregnancy-breastfeeding work
- Since last month, I've been living alone for the First Time Ever
- Empty nest ( ended homeschooling, direct-line parenting)
- Aging parent
And here are some basic issues:
- struggle with resentment against those who "don't act as i think they should"
- Fears
- of failure
- of weighing
- of death/disability
- of divorce (but really, the lack of relationship with a partner)
- Avoidance
- of doctors
- of cameras
- of intimacy
- of seeing old friends
- of honesty
Strengths and positives
- God- Papa, Y'shua, Rhema-Pneuma) Presence, Love, Grace
- My redeemed heart as there is hope because He has taken Possession
- Relationships that are deeply good and true and real
- children
- mama
- bffs
- HeartFeltDesire to become better
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